don't let anyone rush your grief
Don't let anyone rush your grief! You've left the church. That's heavy! Grieve it. Feel it to the full. Go ahead and deny that it hurts. Then bawl your eyes out once in a while. Get angry. Get frustrated. Think about going back then change your mind again. Get depressed. That's the best way to let it pass and finally find peace. Grieving is an important and necessary step after any kind of loss. You have to grieve when you lose your favourite pen. You have to grieve when you lose your loved one. Of course they are on a different scale, but grief is a part of the process of responding to loss. Is there an appropriate length of time for grief? I don't think so. But let's take me for an example. I lose my favourite pen. I can't find it. There's nothing I can seem to do to get it back. It is gone. Forever. My response has been anything from denial, bargaining, anger, depression, to hopefully and finally a sense of peace.* After all, I can go back out and buy another one. Maybe that grieving response took‚Ä¶ I don't know‚Ä¶ 15 minutes. But what if I lose a loved one? The same stages of grief apply, but they will take longer. It will take a much longer time for me to eventually and hopefully reach the stage of peace. But this depends on a lot of factors too. How close was I to this loved one? Were we living together? For how long? How dependent was I on this person? How much did he mean to me? Were we estranged when we were separated? And so on. You might grieve for a year. Or maybe 10 years with the occasional reversions on anniversaries, etc. Who knows? We grieve when we leave the church. Even if we left volitionally or were forced to leave‚Ä¶ whatever the circumstances‚Ä¶ we must allow ourselves time to grieve. If you just went one month to church just to observe and left, your grieving might not take as long. But what if you went to church for 50 years and were deeply involved in its life and then were asked to leave or you felt you simply could no longer stay? How long should grieving take then? A week? A month? A year? Five years? A life time? I would suggest having someone to talk to so that you can walk through it in a healthy manner, whatever that is. It is possible to get stuck in grief, stalled in depression, broken down in sorrow. Having someone to talk to may jumpstart you to make your grief manageable and help you progress towards a joyful life. But don't let anyone tell you how long you have to grieve. Take as long as you want. I remember just a few months after a devastating church split, some people who were strong supporters finally left the church because I wasn't healing fast enough. But I couldn't speed it up. And you might know me well enough by now that I just couldn't fake it. I was grieving. It took me a long time to get over that. I left the church a couple of years ago under strained conditions. I'm still grieving that. But no one's rushing me now. I'm talking with someone. I'm getting better. At my own pace. I'm going to be fine. I see joy coming. You can too. Don't rush the grief. Let it come. Feel it to the full. This is the best way to let it pass. And it will. Eventually. And you will be happy again. I make myself available to talk. If you would like to talk with me, check out my talk page. *The stages of grief were named by K√ºbler-Ross in her book "On Death and Dying".