the importance of being creative during deconstruction
"Alone But Not Lonely" painting by nakedpastor David Hayward
This painting is available in my gallery. CLICK HERE TO VIEW IT.
This is a watercolor painting I worked on over the weekend.¬†I call it "Alone But Not Lonely".
(This post was originally written for the members of The Lasting Supper. I invite you to join us for more stuff like this.)
Let me tell you a story.
Making art was an important part of my healing and reconstruction process.
I didn't know this at the beginning of my deconstruction. It didn't know this consciously after I'd left the ministry and the church. In fact, it wasn't until I published my new book, The Liberation of Sophia
, that I realized making art helped save me.
It was the week after I left the church when I drew my first Sophia drawing. The one with the bear. The inspiration to draw her was¬†unstoppable
It was four years later when I drew my last one. The inspiration to draw her¬†stopped
It was when it stopped that I realized it was probably important that I did it. Drawing Sophia every week and writing about her journey was, I concluded, a crucial part of my healing.
It's strange, but when I stopped drawing Sophia, I also stopped painting. I haven't done a new piece in quite a while.
I draw my cartoons every day. I enjoy it. It's creative. But it's my¬†work
Being creative just for creativity's sake! I need to get¬†disciplined
¬†in that again. And I'm going to advise people when they are going through deconstruction to be creative and discipline themselves to be creative every day.
Because now I realize that creating things does something positive for us:
- It gives us some¬†happiness¬†because even while we are crashing and our world is crashing around us, that we can still create something.
- It¬†inspires¬†us that even though we might feel ugly in an ugly world, there are still remarkable things of beauty to be enjoyed.
- It¬†empowers¬†us to know that even while everything seems to be trying to stop us, we will still give birth to new and wonderful things.
So, here's our exercise:
I believe everyone is a creator. Everyone is an artist. What are you making? What can you make? A painting? A dance? A poem? A journal entry? A blog post? A perfect medium rare steak? An awesome daily Facebook update? A flower arrangement? An urn? A sound of a crow? A computer code? Anything!
I'd love to hear, see, and know what kind of things you guys are creating.